State of Mental

Well things have been remotely difficult for me. I've been seeing a counselor for a year. I'm going back to seeing my old counselor that is on campus. I will also be seeing the doctor there like wise. Things have been tough. Its been a while since I've posted. I kinda lost a lot of drive and I'm just getting it back. Being in a manic isn't as cool as people may think it is. I can't keep things straight. I'm not in the bubbly or angry but in this funk manic. I've decided to try and stay out of the hospital. Each time I go in its like I loose who I am. I know its meant to help me but I am tired of emotional genocide.

Enough on the bad. I have a friend who came in my life a year ago and he has become my best friend.  He has helped me get out of some of the ruts I've been in. He has me praying again-I guess I just forgot how to do it for a while. We've rearranged outside with the help of Gary. We bought plants and potted them up and put them with the table on the front porch. Saturday we were up early and we cleaned and potted up our large planter that we built. I have planted some veggies and even started propagating some cuttings. :) I'm glad for the push, I really needed it.

Last night Garrett decided some of the clutter had to go. So we started around 7 and finished around midnight. The house looks better. We are talking about doing the dining room next just to clean up and get rid of clutter. I like it but I don't know if I will have the energy to do it today. I feel as if I need to go back to bed. But I want to get the house ready because in a couple of weeks I will be holding a stitch party. I'm hoping people actually come. I will be in class for two weeks but taking one night to have people over for sewing isn't a bad thing. So I really don't want the house a total wreck when people come.

I managed to finish a coat that I'd been working on.